Hi Everyone! 🙂 I know I never quite go below skin deep when it comes to my blog and talk about personal stuff besides the makeup I use, the clothes I wear, the goodies I buy or the places I travel to. Today I want to address something I’m quite passionate about and a journey that I’m sure many people are not foreign to: the fitness journey.
I feel that at some point we all have had a love-hate relationship with training, working out, gymming, exercising or however you wish to call it. I’ve certainly had my fair share of a mixed pool emotions when it comes to gymming, I’ve been obsessed with it, I’ve hated it, I’ve dreaded it, I’ve been disappointed, I’ve been excited, I’ve been guilty… you name it and I’ve mostly probably felt it. It’s not until I suddenly clicked one day to stop obsessing over the actual transformation itself that I’ve truly appreciated exercise and fitness. Once you really learn to let go of staring at yourself for hours in front of the mirror scrutinising every single part of yourself that you see, you will feel the transformation.
I’ve pretty much been ‘skinny’ my whole life and trust me my so-called “friends” in primary school made sure that I was aware of it. I was relentlessly teased for being too ‘skinny’ for years. Until as we grew a little older (such as in high school), people started to realise that skinny is in fact the new black! It wasn’t actually that great to have short stumpy legs and baby fat was no longer “cute”. This is when the obsession around me began. Of course I never took part of it because I was happily being envied for eating pies, burgers and pizzas everyday and not gaining a pound. This happiness of mine never lingered around for long enough though, not past third year in varsity at least because it was then I started to realise (to my horror) that I was firstly, terribly unfit because I stopped all sports in grade 10 (I used to be pretty active) and secondly, I started to gain a bit of weight. I mean sure, most people will probably give me some applause for that because I finally look ‘normal’ (some would still say I was skinny) but that’s not MY normal.
Since I was still a student at that time, I had so much time on my hands, I started going to the gym and really trying my hand at this new thing called “fitness”. The reality also hit me when I decided to take a slow jog the one day during my holidays and I got home and threw up because I was so unfit! Now 4 years in and I’m fitter than I ever was, I can lift 20kgs rather easily (do you lift bro?!) and I can run without throwing up. Even though I’m not as skinny as I was when I was 18, which I admit I probably never will be or want to be, but I’ve discovered muscles in places I never knew existed and I definitely look better and feel better. I’m toned but I also have lady curves and that’s something to be proud of. Was it a tough journey? Yes! It was a journey where self-loathe played an essential part of my struggle and mind you, on a daily basis! When I look in the mirror now though, I see accomplishment but I also see where there can be improvement too. There is always room for improvement!
I’m so sick of seeing people out there bringing other people down. Like that joke “only dogs like bones but real men like curves”, I mean really?? Just because a person is skinny, doesn’t mean they have no muscles and are not strong. Just because a person is “fat”, doesn’t mean they’re not fit and can’t run 10km. The truth is, if you’re not born to have a thigh gap, you probably never will, no matter how much weight you lose. There are tons of products out there that helps people with their diets and helps to “burn fat”. Truth is, the best way to burn fat is to put on those running shoes and get off your ass to run. A diet is temporary, those products that people take are temporary too but your lifestyle change stays with you forever. My lifestyle is definitely sticking with me, now it’s all about the proper nutrition, making sure I consume all food groups and also making sure that I have all the correct vitamins and minerals that I need. Naturally, your body WILL transform, the transformation may actually surprise you because you will find beauty in the real, healthy you rather than the “you” that you see in other people.
What’s your fitness story? Email me and let me know. For more fitness inspiration, you can also check out my Instagram account (warning: lots of beauty, fashion, food and travel stuff too).